AHHH, how I have missed writing. I suck at it, but I want to get better, and, like I tell my kids…. practice, practice, practice… I wanted to write one last time for 2014… It was a great year, a sad year, happy year, I did a lot of learning. I think the one think I finally got a handle on was BOUNDARIES… the best part of those boundaries was I finally learned how to say YES to me and what was best for my family, and no to crap… Unfortunately I lost many people… Maybe one day the will respect the healthy boundaries I have set… One can hope. But mostly I am ready to say:
I am a little sad to see 2014 go. I learned so much, that is what I love about life. No matter what we are all constantly learning. We all have opportunities everyday to improve and learn. 2014 was full of adventure and health issues, thankfully as we close out the year we are all healthy with a few minor issues, I am so thankful for this!
I made new friends, I lost friends… well I thought they were “friends” they weren’t, or maybe they just didn’t know what to say to me about my health issues, but saying nothing at all left me feeling abandoned.. AND with my childhood issues, it isn’t something that I forget or forgive. YES, I have many people who care and love me, who supported me, helped me. Friends who helped with my children, who made sure I didn’t have to make dinner for 2 weeks! I am super blessed, so as much as it broke my heart that I had people who I thought were close to me, not even check up or talk to me for weeks… I found some amazing new friends. I also learned that I need to be a better friend, that I want to cultivate some genuine friendships.
My husband and I have had a good year, like all couples we have our ups and downs… He drives me crazy, I drive him crazy, it is great! 😉 He works far too much, but that is what happens when we are trying to establish his business, I am so proud of all he has accomplished with his business. He is such a hard worker, and takes much pride in his work. I am always amazed at how “artistic” he is. I really need to show you all some of his amazing work, he is a tile setter, but I think of him as more of an “artist”!
My little’s are growing too fast… they both drive me nuts, and make me happier than I ever thought possible. I am so glad I get to be their Mom. It is fun to watch them grow and learn. They both have such big hearts, all my children do. I love this about them all.
Nik loves baseball and is crazy talented, I am so proud of his sportsmanship and how he practices and is respectful to his coaches, he listens to them, and wants to be better. He is crazy smart too, he is already reading chapter books and he is just in the 1st grade. He loves to learn!
My baby girl has fallen in love with ballet. She got the opportunity to be a little mouse in the Nutcracker, there was many many practices, and very long days on performance days… I truly wondered how she would handle it. After a 12 hour day as we were walking out to the Jeep, she shouted “I LOVE BALLET!”. I love the school she goes to, the girls are all loving and supportive of each other. She is starting to read, and lives in such a magical world that is full of LOVE and magic.
It has been a year of a lot of success for my oldest. I am so proud of him. He set healthy boundaries, realized that we can love people, but we also can’t allow abuse in our lives. He has become a little bit of a workaholic, but because he has goals attached to the money he is trying to earn. It has been such a pleasure to see him grow in to a man, a hard working one, one who has goals and ethics. I think the best part has been that he calls me about every other day just to talk. I love it. I am so thankful that we have a good relationship.
My bonus kids, as usual I don’t get to see enough, my bonus son is almost a teenager and as we all know as soon as they begin to end the teen years hanging out with parents is NOT what they want to be doing, and being that we only get to see him twice a month, well we haven’t even been seeing him that, it sucks. Rem works a lot, and I don’t get the option of being able to pick him up if my hubby isn’t’ home… Maybe they will change, but he is close to being a teenager… Funny thing is my bonus daughter is now graduated and an adult. AND she has come and seen us more in the last 6 months than the year before… kinda funny how that works.
We had lots of laughs, had a great vacation, 3 surgeries, a high school graduation, new job, set up our LLC, hired employees…. It was a great year. I am looking forward to making 2015 a year of accomplishments, one where I quit talking about what I want to do, to one where I actually do them.
Thanks for being such a big part of my year, thanks for taking time to follow along with my life,I love getting to know you all better, so if you haven’t yet be sure to follow my Facebook page, I love asking questions about you, your day, your life, likes and dislikes. You can find my page HERE.
I am also happy to see 2015 a new year, a year I will accomplish things! I want to stop saying and do more doing! I hope to share more with you all in 2015!