I’m holding on to so much. I don’t know why.
I started this blog because I felt strongly that I needed to tell my story. A little bit for me, but more for you. More, to help. It’s such a fight. From the abandonment I felt when I was younger, to the FIGHTER and SURVIVOR I became. That I am now.
I’ve been struggling with how to make this blog something that is helping and not hurting. I’ve been hearing how it helps you. But others tell me how they think it hurts me, because for so long what was inside of me is now OUT there. All that I’ve been through is no longer a secret. I can’t hide it, and you can see it all.
Even though my ‘father’ is dead, and it’s been over 20 years since charges were filed. You can Google his name (which could have been The Devil) and find articles even now.
I hate, Hate, HATE secrets. We don’t do secrets at my house. We do birthday surprises and gifts. But no secrets, because for me secrets mean abuse.
I guess I’m here to say, I don’t want to be ‘invisible’ anymore. And I really don’t want YOU to be invisible anymore. I don’t want you to break. I want it to STOP. I want to talk about this, to make it known. And I want to talk about it more often. I want to bring light to the darkness.
The past isn’t what defines us, and I will break this silence to share that message.
Whatever your struggle, I want you to know you aren’t alone. It’s not “if we struggle,” it’s “what we struggle with.” Whatever the struggle, we hide it well. Because if we tell our story, people will see us. Maybe no one will believe us. Maybe we’ll be rejected. Maybe both will happen.
But maybe, someone will accept you. Someone will believe you. These ANGELS will lift you. And, sometimes our angels are all we have.
Can I be yours? Will you be mine?
Can we be more than what is behind us? Yes.
Because I will no longer be a victim, for now I will talk about it. I’ll talk about what I’m doing to make myself stronger. I want us to be stronger, together. So, I NEED YOU.
I need you to see me. Share this blog. Let me know you are here.
Here is the weekly lineup
MONDAY | Managing….
WEDNESDAY | Whatever
FRIDAY | Flash Back
SUNDAY | Sharing…
Keep me accountable.