Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like you just can’t get it all done, where you feel powerless over your life…HMMM, maybe I am the only one.
I have been having a lot of those days lately, where I just am OVERWHELMED! I wrote about what I did 10 years ago…..WOW, my life is so so much different today than it was then….
It’s funny, I have been being super critical of myself, like getting mad at me for not being able to do it all. Reminding myself how I USE to be able to do it all…I had a business, worked 10 hour days at a minimum (6 days a week!), volunteered at my son’s school, made dinner, kept a clean house, did all of this as a SINGLE MOM! No help! I did it all… So what the HELL is my problem??? ….OK here is the problem, I now have a business, at home, I have 2 kids that live here full time, an adult son that still needs my help, 2 bonus kids, and a husband…That is the problem! I have way more PEOPLE to take care of, and I am not taking care of me….
One thing that I use to be better at was scheduling, I had a color coded planner…It helped, I am going to go back to that. AND more people = more stuff = more to clean, more laundry, dinner, dishes, school stuff…..You get the picture.. I also use to take time for me, just me….Ya, I don’t have the time for that, my hubby says, “Just do it”….hmmm, I wish I could be like him, just plan it and do it, but….. I have to be aware of everyone else’s schedule, plus his work schedule is insane…I planned a night, he went out of town for work, FRUSTRATING! But I am thankful that he had work…..
Sorry, I could go on and on and on, but I am starting something new here, something I need to hold my self accountable for, and that is that I need to manage my time better, I need to quit over committing, and I need to be better at doing what I want to do, doing what makes me happy.
What do you do to manage your schedule????
I also just lost an amazing Parent, which makes me cry even writing that….Not ready to deal with it, so I am staying in Denial Land for awhile, until I am ready….yep, not ready…
Grateful thought of the day: I am grateful for BIG bags of CHOCOLATE!!!